Jaislynn Quaid

Fate
Nothing happens by chance, my friend... No such thing as luck. A meaning behind every little thing, and such a meaning behind this. Part for you, part for me, may not see it all real clear right now, but we will, before long.
~Richard Bach

A year ago I never would have thought I would be where I am now.  Of course I knew I would be in college, but I thought it would be Columbia, not Chicago U.   I thought I would be partying and living it up in college.  I love partying still, I love going to the bars and everything, I do, but I think I went out more in high school than I do now.

A year ago I liked any boy.  Not that I fucked every boy like people thought.  But I liked flirting and I liked going out with people.  I never in a million years would have thought that I would have met someone like Dom.  He's opened my heart and he's made me realize what I want out of life.  Eventually I could see myself marrying him.  Some time down the road, not tomorrow.  He married young before and it ended.  Even if I'm not her I want to wait with him.  We waited for so long for our first kiss, for the first time we made love.  Yes.  I said those three words together-we made love- instead of we fucked each others brains out.  Not that we haven't done that either.   But I love how he makes me feel, and I love him.  And someday maybe I want this love to be forever.  Or if for some reason we ever part ways, at least I will know I want to love someone like I love him.

I never thought i would still be in Chicago.  But when we became official in August I didnt want to lose that already.  And I'm glad I stayed.  Im glad I could be there when his mom died, I'm glad I could be there when things went bad, I'm glad I could be there to learn about the other amazing thing in my life. 

Alyssa.  Never ever ever would I have thought even in my wildest dreams that I could ever picture myself with a child.  Marriage was a stretch but a child?  Never.  But then he learned about Alyssa, and I found myself telling him he had to fight for her, that she had to be here with us.  And I love that little girl.  Maybe I still need to get into mom mode sometimes, sometimes I don't think I'm that good.  But she's just... something.  I love when I can tuck her in, or we can play while Dom unwinds from work.  I love when I get to just hold her and talk to her and be with her.  She's made this part of my heart, this part I never knew I had, even bigger.

Maybe this life so far isnt what I thought Id have.  But I do think I like it alot better.

And...thats my whole reflective update.

Okay I feel like I'm on a little path of self discovery as I feel like lately I suck at almost anything. So who wants to help me along or start a path of your own?

List what you believe my greatest attribute is as well as my greatest flaw.

Then in accordance with trying your own path you have to list what you believe your Greatest attribute and flaw is as well.

The only rule? Something like 'you're a bitch' does not apply. It has to be something more solid then that. Why am I a bitch? Because I say what I feel, because I'm rude, because I really am a female dog? Even though I think I would know the last of it.

Anyway I'll go first.

I believe my greatest attribute is my philosophical mind and looking at the big picture (sometimes at least)
My biggest fault- sometimes I act without thinking.


Oh and keep it anon!

( Confession is good for the soul )

Friends and politeness
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.
-Henri Nouwen

If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.
-Thumper


Lately I've been thinking alot about myself and alot about other people. Alot about what people think about me and how I come across to other people. And part of me has tried to keep from writing anything till I felt less angry. Till it didnt hurt so mucht o talk. Till I felt less shitty and less like i hated people. I think I'm better now, I think I'm over it more. Its made me remember who I am. And I remember that I love myself, it shouldn't matter what other people think of me. And it makes me realize who my true friends are, who will stay by me and defend me and cheer me up when I'm sad. Friends that will talk about the sexual preferences of super heros with me, friends that will wear cowboy hats and strum their guitars and buy you pie, friends that will fail for you and make you their sidekicks, friends that will dance with you in the street to hillary duff, and take you to pick out french maid costumes, and friends that even when they're in greece, they make you smile (and impregnate you with their e-babies!).

I remember when I was in 1st grade and I came home crying cause Jessica Taylor made fun of me for my freckles. The only one home was daddy and he gave me probably some of the best advice that I could ever get. He told me that people didn't always have to like me, but the people that did wouldn't care what I looked like, or the things I said, they would love me anyway. That if I was true to myself peope would be true to me. I like who I am, I like the confidence I have and the way I carry myself about 90% of the time. Sometimes I get cranky, sometimes I get bitchy, but all people do. Sometimes I make mistakes but we all do.

I've been thinking alot about sex lately. Not actually having it, well no thats crossed my mind a few times, but the way I feel about it. I'm not a slut. I like sex, it feels good, but its supposed to. But I think that it hasnt always meant something. But that happens to others too. But ever since I talked to Beth I remember that first time. I was 15 when I lost my virginity. I can write that I guess since Bret isn't there to see. Toby was my best friend, not in the sense that Beth is my best friend, but Toby and I were tight. I had known him from the moment I was born, well almost the moment I was born. While Beth was away I had Toby. And we shared our secrets and we did everything together. When he told me he thought he was gay, it sounded like the best idea. To save him. His parents were even more religious than my parents, who come on are like...Irish catholic. I'd had the catechism shoved down my throat for years. Being gay meant going to Hell. And we decided that if we had sex he would be able to tell. Of course that might mean going to hell too...but at least it meant we'd go together. So I lost it to him and it didn't save him. His parents sent him to one of those schools where they try to like...reprogram you from being gay or something. It was like even making love to someone you care so much about didnt really matter. We lost it and he still left. I think thats the day I stopped believing god could do everything. If he could he would have let Toby stay. Now I lost my best friend. I havent seen him since the day he left. I hope hes okay. I'm sure he is, but still I feel bad.

Now Im tired. and I dont know if I want to write anymore. And my quotes didnt match... but oh well.

Name Jaislynn Katherine Quaid
Age 17
Occupation High school senior
Sibling Older sister (not yet named) and older brother Bret
Family Dynamics Jaislynn loves her family but at the same time despises all of them except for Bret. She always felt like her sister was to stuck up, being the oldest she liked to think she ruled the household. Bret was the only son in the entire family so he was dotted upon. And Jaislynn was the youngest of the bunch- out of all three brothers too! By the time she popped her head into the world the family was pretty big and she was easily overlooked. Something she is pretty much greatful for, as she knows how dramatic her family can be. Someones always fighting, someone's always drinking, someone's always doing something. She didn't want to be just another Quaid Kid, she wanted to be someone. And someone she is. She parties, she flirts, on occasion she drinks, and on rare occasions smokes cigarettes. The whole drug scene was never for her. Ever. Part of this choice was her own, part of it was because she wanted Bret to really believe she was as great as he thinks she is. Yes she's a partier, and yes she's done some naughty things. But for Bret... For him she's perfect. Mostly because he's the one person to ever love her unconditionally. She thinks the world of him and hurting him would be the worst thing she could ever do in her mind. She loves her parents, but she doesnt feel like they've ever loved her as much as they love her siblings, or even their nieces or nephews. But she respects them and loves them all the same.




Likes Dancing in her underwear, vodka and cranberry, sex on the beach (both the drink and the actual sex) Lying about her age, Sugarfree gum, coffee, and black jelly beans
Dislikes Drugs, cigarettes (she only does it when she's drunk), lying to her brother
Often seen Wearing her cheerleading uniform or her school uniform
At night she likes to dance in her undies and take bubble baths
Personality Though sometimes Jaislynn tends to act like a ditz she really isn't. She's bright, she's witty, she gets amazing grades. She does plan on making her family truely proud of her someday. She knows when to sit down and crack the books open but often times she's just happy enough partying her little butt off.



Sexual Orientation Straight. Though on the rare drunk occasion she might be persuaded to kiss girls.
Past relationships TBA?
Current relationships None.
Beliefs on relationships Jaislynn likes to think that relationships would mean settling down. She likes the fun and spontaneity of the casual hookup and the date. Not that she goes around and cock hops. But she likes sex. However if she were to ever settle down with someone there is no doubt she'd be faithful.


Turn ons Nice smiles, kind eyes, strong arms, accents, watching a man treat his mom well, nice asses, being pressed against walls.
Turn offs Bad breath, BO, guys that smoke before kissing her, doing drugs, people that treat people like shit

In friends she looks for Truthfulness, common interests, humor, fun loving, faithful, and at times serious. Basically people that are like her or won't treat her or anyone else with disrespect. She parties with alot of people but it doesn't mean she's friends with them. But if you are on Jaislynns bad side she sure lets you know it.



Her first:

Drink That she can remember was when she was 5. Her grandpa gave her whiskey to make her stop crying at their christmas part, when her cousin got the gift she wanted.
Cigarette 10th grade, behind the bleachers before cheer practice
Sexual experience She would rather not say, incase Bret sees



Extra curriculars AV club, Debate club, yearbook, cheerleading, NHS President
GPA A+ student, a front runner for this years salutorian (she blames the fact she won't be number 1 on the sexist practices of the school... she thinks they coddle boys to much)
Future aspirations Plans to attend Columbia college, will be getting a duel degree in Business Relations and Human resources. She eventually wants to be a lawyer so she can save the world. But wants to make sure her family business is saved first.